I deleted some of our photos, but i still kept some. i kept it for the good times. To remind me of true love, take care of it, and never let it go. i know that someday, you will look at me and won’t see that taunting, indecisive and crazy girl, but see a woman you would want to talk to. And if there is ever a chance, even marry. I love you. i won’t wait for you, but see you around. :)
-the deep dark part of my mind
could i love another?
somebody asked me out..
i didn’t like him, but because i dont know how to deal with those situations
I PANICKED..
I feel bad because i dont want him to wait for me in the end..
I’m still afraid to love.
jan 4, 2013
Blogging before going to work:
My bestfriend says that the first scar is the deepest from that song i dont remember
she is right. It feels like i have just be operated for fun. one by one i am treating my self. stitching up the wounds left by our relationship
i dream that one day the scar left by our relationship so big and so deep on my body will turn white.. Not totally gone, but unapparent enough so that i can wear bikinis again.
the analogy was inspired by a true scar that i have. an appendix scar from when i was 5. It happened so long ago that my scar blended with the color of my body and that when i wear a bikini its not noticable
I dream of that day.. when our scars blends with our skin. and that we are together once more reminded of our scars, but not hindered by it.
Me waiting maybe a lost cause, but i cant help but wait. I know he cant help but walk away. its our nature.
Jan 4 at this moment i remember the days we were happy. the days i am grateful for. and it hurts. i love him thats a fact.
Your popping up everywhere!
I wish i can unfriend you, unfollow you, but i can’t…
i want to know if you feel the same way..
